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Sahadeva Torpy • London, United Kingdom

My mother's soul comes to visit Guru

Bhavani and her two sons, Devashishu and Sahadeva, meditate with Sri Chinmoy. Bhavani passed away unexpectedly in December 2000.

We would ask Guru many questions about Bhavani—what she is doing in the soul’s world and if she wants to come back to Earth. Guru said: “A disciple like Bhavani wants to be in Heaven for when her Master passes. She wants to be there for the celebrations in Heaven.”

Guru said one time that Bhavani, in the soul's world, came to visit Guru on the Christmas trip. It was during the night and Guru was meditating on Mother Kali. As she approached Guru, she saw Guru facing this light and she was afraid of the light. She asked Guru, "What is it?" Guru said, "This is Mother Kali." Guru said Bhavani's soul was afraid, but from Guru's point of view, he said he found it very charming. Then Guru finished meditating with Mother Kali, and Bhavani came and sat in front of Guru.

Sri Chinmoy with images of Mother Kali in the background. Mother Kali was Sri Chinmoy's family deity when he was growing up.

As soon as she came, she got frightened to death when she saw me meditating, high, higher, highest, looking at the picture of Mother Kali. The picture frame has some bright lights inside it. Bhavani asked, “What is this? What is this?”

I said, “You cannot recognise yourself?” Bhavani is an aspect of Mother Durga and Mother Kali! The electric lights were dazzling her and her soul got frightened. This is what happens. If you have not realised God, then even if you are a soul, you are bound to be frightened by these dazzling lights.

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Then Guru said: “We talked politics and world affairs.” Guru said she spoke just like she did when she was on Earth, very fast and lots of words. It was all about politics.

One of the things that Guru really showed us, me and my brother Devashishu and everybody, was that you never really die. One thing is you can just say: “Oh, that's the soul.” But when you actually start to have experiences through Guru of your mother still being alive, saying all these things, you really know and you really feel that the person is completely still alive.

Every year after Bhavani's passing, Sri Chinmoy would observe her birthday, along with her husband Kaivalya (right) and her sons Devashishu and Sahadeva

Bhavani came today only for her son Sahadeva’s birthday. These souls are just on the next floor. There is a big mirror in between, so they can see us.

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Guru said, "You have to imagine like your mother is in New York and you are in London. She's in a different place. You cannot see her, but she is still alive."

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The Kingdom of Heaven

The Kingdom of Heaven
Is not for a darkened mind.
The Kingdom of Heaven
Is not for a trembling heart.
The Kingdom of Heaven
Is not for an unloving life.
The Kingdom of Heaven
Is only for the God-dreaming
And God-pleasing soul.

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